jenovajunkie

PINK PLATYPUSES

The real reason I wanted you to come with me is because I miss you. The reason I lie to you is because deep down you made me feel like I wasn't good enough. I that's why I will always feel that going with me alone isn't good enough of a reason for you to come.

Meh, one day they will see. One day they will learn. Maybe I will too.

If I don't get it out of my head it will bug me all day. So it's expressed.

Why do I get things that are presented in fragments? You know when you don't have all the information, or you understand portions; is it because of who I am?

Honestly like before it didn't bother me, until near the end of my undergrad. I found it extremely difficult that other people would see things and attach meaning to it. That one meaning now applies to everyone with that behavior/trait.

Now it doesn't bother me it just makes me question why. Then I realize the answer. ...

Okay I made it a resolution to become more active on this forum. I frequently have creative episodes and random thoughts, it's really cool. Problem is I don't write them down so sometimes I forget them and it's kinda hard to write when you're in the shower.

To be continued.. . . . . . . . . .

I don't hold things in my head, I don't stew on problems either. I just have weird recall, especially for auditory information.

Thank You.
JJ

The battle in my head is done.


I won.


JJ

Je pense ce que j'ai perdu mon meilleure ami

I am really sad now.

JJ

So I went to my local bar, and these two guys walk in. I pack up my cue and let them play doubles with two of my friends. I then put my cue back in the corner of the bar and go have a drink at the bar.

The whole time I thought that "maybe you should move your things.". But I said nah man I must be paranoid. To no surprise the losers stole my jacket, and whatever I had lying around in it.

Moral of the story: Stop trusting other people/Be more careful of yourself ...

Well today, my mom's friend told me what I'm doing for the people who aren't doing what I am with what I have. She told me never to let people bring you down or get into your head. She reminded me that even with my deficits, I am succeeding.

I am showing people that even with trout thats thrown at me, even the trout I throw at myself, I push on. I know I am stubborn, persistant, aggressive and i over think everything.

But that's me. That's how I succeed. That's how I set ...

t's not that I'm dumb, or I don't learn. It's the fact I believe the world is against me. Because the world took so much from me, because I know so much evil. People have done me so much wrong, that I'm blind to those who do me right. Problem is I keep feeding the part of me that believes this lie. I don't acknowledge the part that knows the truth. I fail over and over again. No more, when I said I should write a book I wasn't lying.
"You have to lose everything. To gain something" ...