jenovajunkie

This past month I've been up and down. Almost enough to diagnose me with "bi-polar II disorder"

I really can't stop thinking of how great I feel. It can be attributed to the end of the semester though.

I can say that along my search for myself, or whatever it was I was trying to achieve; I found something more. I found myself not standing still, but already running down another road.

But I don't know where it's taking me. I just know this feels ...

Hello.
I love this part of my depressive episodes. The moment you realize your problem, then you fix it and now this.

It's like I just got the strength to stand on my own again.

That final step out of that wheelchair for good.

Man, let's take on the world. I am winning.

JJ

People admire me for what I do, say and have accomplished. What they don't know is that just because I have the ability and want to help others is that I'm not perfect. I'm not happy, and with all my friends, still I believe no one likes me.

No matter how much I try and fill this gap with friends, it's always "not satiated".

I can function and seem to be perfectly fine. No one would know the immense pain that infects my blood. Silently it decimates any single ...

What's wrong with me?

I am being ridiculous. I found my self. It was in the god damn mirror.

Idiot.

Okay I'll give you the quick story.

1] i liked a girl
2] I thought she liked me back
3] However I let time pass
4] Then stuff got busy, and a panic attack hit me
4] I was in the middle of asking her out.....

And then realized she was never in to me
and felt worthless and stupid!
(She's a friend too, now I fear interacting ever with her)

This triggered an all time low in the depression scale for me. Although I could be relying on recent

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My first blog entry, it only seems fit to refer to my first big post. So when I came here, I fought endlessly trying to convince everyone psychology was a science. And then later figured out I was totally wrong, but failed to apologize for my naivety.
I said behaviour is what it studies. psychology: the science of behaviour. That's what my first year text read.

However, much like economics, the subject of study (the economy) cannot be predicted.

The fact is, I behaved ...