Thanks guys.. I think it's just.. It's been almost 10 years. And back then, everyone was going through a rough time- not just me. So many things happened with all of us and it's a really long story. I still want to know why- and especially I want to know what my ex did to my dog. And of course, I wanna know if he ever really did care about me or love me or if he was only with me because "I had money".. And like if we hadn't been on drugs back then, would things have been better.. I can't help but wonder about it- why was that person/woman/thing better than me that he essentially left me for her? Why did I get treated like trout (literally. I was pretty much only allowed to be friends with his siblings and I was never allowed to talk to his friends.. And much more stuff.) and then thrown away like yesterday's garbage? Things like that will always stick with me, no matter how much I move on from it. And it's just something I have to deal with. You hear about abusive relationships and how the guy won't let the woman leave. With us, it was more like I gave him everything I had and when I started losing it all, he became worse and worse. Steadily. I'm glad he isn't the person I dated anymore. I wouldn't wish that kind of mindsmurf on anyone. I'll never be completely over it, but I'm done being upset and mad about it. There are just some hurdles that are impossible to jump, and my legs are very short, but I'm trying- even if it means falling on my face.
Normally I'm one who pushes for closure, but in this case, yeah, probably better off not knowing. I hope speaking to them provided you a different sort of closure, though.
I'm impressed with your resolve with this. I still hold grudges from people who scorned me several years ago. You're a better person than I would be about it.
Thanks Calliope I'm a lot wiser than people realize. I just can't be bothered enough most of the time to show it.
Good luck!
I think this is the wisest post I've seen from you.
I live in NYC right now. But I miss Tennessee. It's my home and I can't wait to move back and settle down in Nashville permanently.
My condolences to you for having to live in Tennessee. It's good that you guys can still be friends. Both you & your ex have moved on, so I don't see anything wrong w/ it.
I could have sworn this blog said "I have a new goat"
i thought you said you had a billion different cookies stored on your phone i want to go to there
lmao I get so much trout when I say I use Opera sometimes. Yes! It'll only take me about 30 years to do. hahaha
stop laughing made me laugh more xD Julie et Julia a la noxy!
I'm glad you didn't have any issues getting through the TSA and took good measure of preparations. Yeah, I as pretty worried that if you just show up without an ID, they wouldn't let you through xD
Shorty's right. If you are over 18 and don't have an ID, they won't let you through.
I... don't think you will be able to get through without a photo ID.
It sound like you guys have had problems for a while. Do you think your life would be better or worse without him?
I tried that and she wasnt helpful at all. My sister sucks balls.
i'd say smurf them (the family), really. stop caring and shut them out of your life (since they seem to be doing the same) its not worth crying over ppl that dont seem to care about you. alteast thats what i would do, but thats perhaps becaus i pretty much have no contact with my family either, the only contact comes through my parents. edit: p.s i know you cant say it to yr mother in person anymore, but would it be an idea to releave your heart to your sister?
That's sick. I'm sorry this is happening to you and it makes my day a little sadder knowing a regular here may well be the culprit
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