noxious.sunshine

This is actually hard for me to talk about.

[COLOR=#3E3E3E]I had an abortion.

I've actually had 2.

The first one happened during a very difficult time in my life, and yes, I will be woman enough to admit, I don't know who the father was - though there were only 2 possible choices. No I never cheated on my ex or anything like that, but he's the one that paid for it.

I actually didn't feel bad about that one. I found out I was pregnant early ...

Finished Day 2 of this juice fast.

The weekend is coming up, quicker than I expected, and my friend Sean is supposed to come over on Saturday. .. One problem though: Jay's account is somehow negative. And we owe Sean a night of drinking 'cuz the server @ the bar effed up the tickets and ran the wrong cards on the wrong checks. So IDK how that's gonna pan out.

Anywho. So Saturday is definitely gonna be a problem. Cooking dinner, drinking... I can take -1- day off, right? ...

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew?

Parker really wanted to stay one more night, but my sister shot that down.. She starts dance camp this week.

My dude was supposed to come through for me, but he never did. We drove all the way to Antioch (1.5 hr) to go do this and then he just didn't answer his phone. We ended up going to this sports bar and eating. My Friend Sean showed up to watch the game and have a drink with us. I got tanked. I hadn't seen My Sean in like a year. So that was pretty awesome. And then he was like ...

She sat with me on our bed and was helping me fold clothes and said, "Mommy... Do you think Poppy (my Dad) would like to have a surprise party for his birthday? I want to have a party for him and bake a cake with Gram for him!"

She found a picture of my dad holding her when she was little and asked if we could get a frame for it to give him and asked if she could pick out a card.

So we called my mom and P told her what she wanted to do. We'll be going that way ...

Yep. My Dad is the big 6-4 today.

I called him to say Happy Bday and congratulated him on making it through another year and living to see another age/birthday whatever.

And then I reminded him that next year, his birthday'll be Friday the 13th. And he says that's always his lucky birthdays/days in general. It's my Grandfather who had bad luck every year on a Friday the 13th. Legit.

So we talked for awhile and I told him that Jay & I would be coming to ...

Okay, so I've been scouring Craigslist and various apps for a house for rent (someone shoot me). Mostly Craigslist though.

The few houses that I've found that I -really- like, I emailed the owner (if it's not listed by a real estate agency)... WELL, 1 guy actually did email me back with his number.

Now. In each email, I've expressly said "What is your weight limit for dogs? We are planning to get a very large breed that -will- weigh 150 lbs+ along with a cat for my ...

I finally blocked my ex's number last night. I just can't deal with his shiz anymore. He thought it'd be cool to send me a picture of himself and I told him -again-, that I'm tired of him pulling this stuff with me and disrespecting me and thinking he can continue to treat me like shiz.

So then he sends me a picture of this girl he says he's dating that's also a teacher. LMAO... First of all, she has tattoos -everywhere- (which he's always said is a major turn off for him) that could ...

I just heard a General Effing Lee car horn outside.

No I'm not kidding.

Yeah yeah "Dukes of Hazzard" is the ish though!

.... Not anymore it isn't.

Not since my brother and I stopped watching it together and they ruined the show with those retarded ass movies and trying to turn Jessica Simpson into Daisy Duke.

That is all.

I haven't been able to drink lately. And it's quite irritating.

At least not beer anyway. Beer's been making me feel nauseated even with one sip.

I had a Mai Tai at the Aquarium Restaurant and felt fine.

I've also been having issues with a stomach bug I just can't seem to get over. It's not horrible. It's just an "ohhhh I feel queasy" feeling, though the last time I drank a whole bud light, I yakked immediately. I never get sick. Seriously. Like ...