noxious.sunshine

A year ago today, we lost my Smelly.

I miss her terribly. She was an incredible soul. So sweet and funny.

She lived to be a ripe old age for a Boxer, and had as good a life as possible, even though my mom never cared for her or loved her like she should've.

But, I didn't realize it'd been a year already until a couple of hours ago. And I've been crying on and off ever since.



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Talked to my mom for a minute just now.

My aunt (her older sister) is back in the hospital and her lung cancer came back after the doctors said they'd gotten all of it the first time. They'd removed part of her lungs and said she was in the clear.

But no. It's back and now it's spread to her lymph nodes.

I'm not sure how I feel about it.. I used to be close to her, but haven't been in a really long time. I haven't even seen her since like 2004 much less spoken ...

Why the hell did I have to get cursed with humongous calves!?

These boots are so cute, but they're so tight on my calves it's like a 2nd skin! I couldn't even wear leggings or jeggings with them!

I guess it doesn't matter though since there's absolutely no sign of cooler weather on the horizon anyway.

On the other hand, I -am- for real going on an intense diet starting Monday .. maybe I'll lose some weight down there... We'll see. I kinda doubt it, but. ...

I talked to my mom today and she told me that she came to Nashville, stayed with my sister, then went on to the garage/property she & my dad still own in my hometown to get more stuff and clean it out.

She told me not to get mad or upset about it, and I didn't.... Not on the phone with her anyway.

But it really upsets me that she didn't say anything. I could have gone with her to help. We all could have met somewhere for dinner.

I'm the only one of ...