noxious.sunshine

Our roommate will be home tomorrow at around 5. His flight leaves sometime soon.

He sent me a msg on FB and was like "BEER. LOTS OF IT. My flight leaves soon. Be ready tomorrow."

Annnd it just means we're that much closer to leaving for NYC. Yep. More and more nervous!

Annnd I'm trying to get my grocery list and stuff ready for tomorrow.. If teh Jay gets paid in the morning, I'm getting up early and going shopping.

Still figuring ...

I told my mom about the move last night.

Needed to get her recipe for her oyster dressing & yeast rolls.

She wasn't mad or upset. Just surprised. We didn't talk long cuz she had to get off the phone to do something and never called me back.

Just like her. She likes my sister more than me. And I'm the only 1 out of the 3 of us that calls regularly and makes an effort to go see them more than once or twice a year.

oh well.

Passed out by 11 or 12, up at 6 or earlier.

Also, I'm about to go Britney Spears and shave my head. And maybe give my hair to Locks for Love.

Seriously. It's getting ridic. This junk is legit down to my waist when it's all back behind my ears. And 'cuz it hasn't been trimmed since 1945, it's all stringy and the ends are hella split. It's sooo annoying. I'm not even allowed to mention a hair cut.. Of any sort. Jay flips out and shuts me down immediately. My mom forbade me ...

I keep thinking it's next week.

But it's this week. Right? RIGHT!?

I haven't broken the news to my padres about NYC, but then again, my mom hasn't answered her phone, so whatever. Can't say I didn't try.

But we also won't make it to Texas for Turkey Day, either. Just can't afford it... For obvious reasons.

It makes me sad, that my parents will be without family this year. I thought my sister was going & I was just gonna ride with her, but ...

I told my sister today that I'm going and she's actually excited for me. And she even said (on her own) that jobs would be easier to find that are within walking distance.

And pretty much said that I could stay with them the weekends that I fly home. Not in those words, but. Whatever.

So I feel a lot better about the situation. My sister is a lot more open minded about things like that ... As much as we don't get along for the most part... And I guess her opinion is ...

Yep. I'm going to New York.

And I'm kinda freaking out a lot.

We made up and everything's fine, but I don't really have a choice in the situation. It's either stay here and have nowhere to go or go and have a roof over my head.

I'm just staying for a month or two - to try it out. If I can find a job, keep up with flying back to TN to see my lil girl, and I don't completely hate it.. I'll stay.. For awhile.

Just long enough to get some things straightened ...

A bunch of people know about all of this already, but.. It's still bothering me to no end.

Dude dropped this major bomb on me on Sunday talkin' about how "we" have to move to NYC after he gets out of the army.

"We" don't have to do sh**. I'm not going to NYC to -live- there. Hell to the no.

Something about he -has- to go to avoid jail time over this whole marriage arrangement he's had going on for several years.

I told him ...