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My mom's older sister passed away this morning.

I hadn't been close to her in a pretty long time so I'm not as upset over it.

But. She died. So. There it is.

My brother left this morning and then my best friend came and got me for a few hours right after that...

My dad decided he wants to get a Giftmas tree tomorrow ... I'm not so sure I can handle that, but he wants to do it, so I have no choice.

This really sucks... A lot.

I wanna set up a gofundme page for my dad.

I'm not asking anyone -here- to donate money, I just need help setting it up. What to write, and all of that stuff.

I know that I said someone would be setting up a benefit for my dad, but it's going to take a lot more than that to help him.

My brother says he'll send $20 or $30 every week when he can and IDK what my sister will be willing to put in... And me..As of now, I'm just here giving my time and effort to take ...

I think I'm gonna switch my food blog over to blogger & add a personal blog .

I think I like blogger better than wordpress..

So. We'll see.

I gotta go smoke with my brother and then check it out

yay.

My big brother is leaving today, so it'll just be me and my dad. I'm really nervous and scared.

He jumped all over me last night cuz my brother and I were gone longer than what we told him ... I figured he'd be happy that we're getting along- even if we -were- out for awhile. He went on about "if I'm gonna be doin all this partyin and goin out BS I might as well go back to TN" (Seriously, I felt like we were in high school and had broken curfew hardcore on the way home. My ...

.... I miss you.

We're having a small service for my mom tomorrow.

My brother got here earlier and we went to hang out with my best friend for a little while.. We got stoned and bought some pain pills and whatnot..

It was good. I forgot how much I love hanging out with my big brother- especially when it's just us... We talked and laughed and all that good hsit.

But I have a lot on my shoulders regardless.. I'm the only one able to stay with ...

For all of the amazing messages, comments, and texts that I've gotten from you guys.

You have no idea how much it means to me. I'm very thankful and lucky to have each and every one of you in my life.

xD I expect a lot of sympathy votes for the Ciddies from those who haven't voted yet.

I'm just kidding.

I spoke with my dad for over an hour at 2 a.m. and he's seriously beasting it up right now. There were a few tears, sure, but the majority ...

My mom died.

I can't believe it's already here ... The movers/shippers will be here in the morning to pack up our stuff that's going into storage for right now.

Then we'll be leaving Tuesday morning I guess....

this week went by quickly.