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snacks — Wed, 16 Apr 2014 23:06:02 GMT

HEY GUYS WHAT'S SHAKEN?

SO AS MOST OF YOU KNOW OR MAYBE DON'T I HAVE BEEN A MEMBER HERE FOR 8 YEARS NOW, WOW TIME FLIES HUH? ANYWAYS THAT'S JUST AN ARBITRARY NUMBER I THREW IN THERE FOR GOOD TIMES SAKE, HOW ARE YOU ALL DOING TODAY? WELL, TODAY I DIDN'T DO MUCH OF ANYTHING. I SAT AROUND IN MY OWN LITTLE HUFF BECAUSE MY PARENTS ARE BEING STUPID AND I'M A MILLION MILES FROM WHERE I WANT TO BE BUT I HAVE TO BE HERE. YOU SEE MY HUSBAND'S MOM WAS DIAGNOSED WITH BREAST CANCER TWO WEEKS AGO, SHE'S LUCKILY CAUGHT IT AT AN EARLY STAGE SO THAT WAS GOOD. WE ORIGINALLY CAME DOWN HERE BECAUSE WE WERE LIVING IN A ROACH INFESTED HELL HOLE AND WE NEEDED TO ESCAPE. WELL WE DID.

ANYWAYS BACK TO ME, I AM GOING OUT OF MY MIND TRYING TO BE EVERYTHING TO EVERYONE. MY OTHER HALF IS TRYING TO REMAIN STRONG THROUGH ALL OF THIS MOM STUFF, AND I AM TRYING TO REGAIN WHAT LITTLE COMPOSURE I STILL HAVE LEFT FROM THE YEARS OF CRAP I'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH. MEANWHILE MY MOTHER WHO SEEMS TO SEE DOLLAR SIGNS WHENEVER I CALL OR TEXT HAS BEEN ON WHAT SEEMS LIKE A DRUNKEN/WHATEVER RAMPAGE BECAUSE MY FATHER WHO WAS IN THE HOSPITAL FOR A YEAR AND A HALF WITH SOME KIND OF RARE AUTO IMMUNE DISEASE IS TREATING HER AND MY BROTHER LIKE CRAP. SHE WANTS ME THERE, AND I HAVE TO BE HERE. ITS COOL HUH?

SO HERE I AM, ROCK. HARD PLACE. ITS PRETTY COOL HONESTLY. I MEAN IF I NEEDED ANYMORE PRESSURE IN MY LIFE TO SUCCEED AND BE WELL WHILE HURDLING EVERY OBSTACLE THROWN IN MY EFFIN WAY I WOULD PROBABLY BE IN THE OLYMPICS. I HAVE COME TO THE CONCLUSION IN MY LATE YEARS THAT YOU CANNOT PLEASE EVERYONE IN LIFE, AND IF YOU TRY YOU WILL END UP DEAD.

SO IF YOU DON'T HEAR FROM ME HERE, ON CHAT OR ON FACEBOOK I HAVE SUCCUMB TO INSANITY.

HAVE A GREAT DAY!

Welcome to the snacks/skt show!

snacks — Sat, 13 Jul 2013 23:37:27 GMT

:kakapo::kakapo::kakapo::kakapo::kakapo::kakapo::kakapo::kakapo::kakapo:

So let's begin where we left off eh?

Last we left our hero he was in a harrowing situation with 4th down and no time outs left, it was looking bad for the kid, it looked like the end. So let's see how he's doing now.

Hi skt can you tell me how it's going?

I didn't sign up for this smurf mothersmurf smurf smurf *turns camera away*

And that's how he's doing!

I'm totally screwed

snacks — Mon, 19 Nov 2012 02:08:41 GMT

Seriously stolen from, car troubles, no way out. I swear to god I don't think I'm cut out for this life.

I'm sorry.

snacks — Wed, 14 Nov 2012 23:26:51 GMT

Jiro, Shorty, Araciel, Peegees, and anyone else.

I'm sorry.

I won't advertise but.

snacks — Thu, 08 Nov 2012 12:59:45 GMT

There's a thread, that Jiro started about me needing help.

It's a dire situation involving sewer water drainage, roaches, fleas and nastiness. We've dumped what little money we've had in the house and it's improved a bit but it's not enough.

In a month it'll be back to being worse than it was.

I don't know guys, this is the worst thing I think I've been through but I've got to believe things will get better.

If you could chip in a buck, or even spread the word please do. I would appreciate it so much. I need out of this abusive/toxic atmosphere.

Can someone explain the Gil to me here?

snacks — Sat, 13 Oct 2012 22:12:47 GMT

I noticed when you post a new topic it's like 3 or 5 and 1 for each post made, is there a system?

So I'm that special kind of poor.

snacks — Tue, 09 Oct 2012 19:18:03 GMT

5 years ago, if you'd told me I would own a house, hardly do any living in it for the first year, suffer the next 4 years with a illness that made the house a sort of crutch and then sell it and live with someone else again, I'd probably laugh. I'd probably tell you to shut up.

Then again 5 years ago I didn't know obviously how life truly can turn you upside down and ring you through.

We sold our house 2 weeks ago, the closing was on a Friday and we got to spend one more weekend in the house cleaning our things out. And it never hit me. Being a military brat, it bothered me when I had to move every 4 years but I always knew where I'd be. With my family, in a new town starting over.

And in a way starting over is usually a good thing, right? Starting over especially after using a house as a safe zone, and being able to exit that safe zone and truly test your limits is something that you should do now and again. I type this easier than I can do it, I feel the hands of anxiety grabbing at me as I type. It's awful, it really is.

It didn't really hit me, truly as hard as I thought it would until the other day when we decided that we'd done enough work for the new owner. He'd brought in a professional team who could do the work much faster, and we were mostly screwing around trying to get as much more time in as we can. I'll explain in a moment. We handed over the keys permanently the owner, and as we drove away for the first time W cried. I mean sobbed, the hardest I think I've ever seen him in the 8 years we've been together. We pulled over and sobbed for half an hour, and we regained out composure, and went to the new place we're staying at.

So now we're poor. Our friend's mom graciously let us stay with her until we decide what our next move is. We've lived here before, it was always....well it wasn't the cleanest house but there have been new editions. Roaches and fleas.

We're living in a real life version of Joe's Apartment.

I'm not saying this for sympathy or to make anybody feel sorry, but really whatever you home is, make it your home. Make it yours, don't use it as a crutch. Love that home. I know there will be other homes, I know we will get a new place and it'll be grand but for right now, I'm stuck. I'm stuck killing roaches, and keeping my dog free of fleas.

And for now, maybe this is a lesson I'm supposed to be learning about responsibility. Maybe this is something I'm supposed to be going through to grow up.

So I'm poor.

ohai eoff

snacks — Sat, 23 Apr 2011 21:03:18 GMT

What's going on in this blog?