I don’t make eye contact.
No, seriously, it's really nothing. And not like that anymore. They really hand that stuff out like crazy when you're that young.
I can’t do much with it.
Haha, pfft I don't care. Anyways, yes THEY ARE. Although my mom was puzzled when I put them all away. Anyways again. There were those student of the month things, there was this award I got for the speech tournament one time...I think there was a picture that I did that got second place for once, yeah. So long ago. Oh, a lot of stuff for getting good grades on certain tests. Like, being able to do 100 multiplication problems in under a certain amount of time--elementary school stuff. There was this one big award I got in like, 7th grade for English. Jesus I've forgotten all of this stuff
I don’t think any of them like me, anyway. I don’t care. I’m just trying to get through it. They always stop talking when I’m around, like I’m going to murder them or something. And I’m always on the opposite side of the kitchen when the place is quiet. And so on.
That’s what the poster at work says. Sometimes a genuine smile can make all the difference! But I don’t think so. How the smurf do they expect me to pull of a genuine smile? That’s what I like to see, sure, but I don’t expect them from smurfing everybody. I know. When assholes smile at me, I can tell that they are being disingenuous, and I wish they wouldn’t do it. smurf. How do you do today? He doesn’t even stay around for my answer, so why bother?
Because...it feels very...self-indulgent? Is that the word? I mean, I didn't put them up there, my parents did, but it was ME all over the wall. Like, HEY LOOK AT HOW AWESOME I AM AREN'T I AWESOME? I didn't need to look at that stuff all the time. There was all my student of the month on the wall--and every time it happened you had to take a picture. So there was also like, 5 pictures of myself on the wall.
It would probably be easier if I was friendly, though. People always tell me that. It will just be easier if you smile! I wonder why that is. I don’t think that it would be. If anything, it would raise the difficulty.
Why what? Why were they on the wall or why were they disturbing or
No. They used to be covering a wall in my bedroom. Up until like...middle school or something. Probably 5 or 6 years ago now. It's quite disturbing to see all that right in front of you.
