Oh hey. Long time no talk. xD I've actually been considering going to college myself. Gonna be a tough one, but eh. Better that than factory jobs, which is about all there is where I live. xD
Alright I just started my final semester at school. Going to be a tough one
Hey bud, not much. (: How have things been with you?
Hey Nikki what's been happening?
Rawr, rawr, rawr, rawr, rawr. <3
It'll be okay, I promise. troutty stuff happens to good people, and it sucks, but it's totally true. But because they are good people, eventually they will get a break. And you will, too. I promise. (: And it's not big deal haha. Actually, lots of things, but it's probably not appropriate to talk about them in VM, so if you want to PM me, go right ahead. (:
How rude of me not to ask what's happening in your life. So Nikki, what's happening in your life?
Thank You Nikki, I appreciate the fact that you know me for who I really am. It's funny because I go to school with this girl, and we see each other all the time. However, you and I just talk on the internet and I feel like you know me a hundred times better. *sigh* What did I get myself into this time......
I'm so sorry, J. I can't believe they would do that to you... You're a good guy, and you don't deserve that. ; ~;
Right now I feel lost and wrecked. It's like I have to re-build myself, I don't know if I'm going to be fine. But the weird thing is, by lying to me they were trying to help me. I think, first they assumed that I care what other people think of me. I care about things important to me. That's when the half-truths, lies and deception came about. Then I started not believing anything my profs and friends said. Then it started to get out of hand, they tried using systematic desensitization. But to me I was SO mad they were "testing/playing" with my mind and heart. I recently started a student association to provide students with mental health support. They got my executive team to also mess with my head, and even some of my research lab colleagues. It drove me to a point where I had went from and "internal locus of control" to an "external locus of control". I now don't trust anyone, let alone my self. I have this thing called "perplexity" from my "traumatic brain injury", and I had it under control UNTIL this happened. Now it has been exasperated so far that every decision I make I always second guess it and turn my choice over in light of a better solution. It's hard but I think I'm rebounding back swiftly. I don't know if I can forgive them.
