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Alright, so over the weekend I came on here and was very drunk. However, I was ANGRY drunk. This was due to not necessarily drinking too much, but having more of an intake of alcohol AT ONCE that I normally am I used to.

I basically was very cynical and negative in a few threads, and in chat, I was downright unreasonable and picking fights/refusing to listen to any reason. Someone could have gave me ten grand or something and I would have found a problem with it and snapped on someone.

However, I am not going to avoid any responsibility by saying, "Sorry bros, I was drunk." The trick is, if you decide to drink, is that I feel it is the drinker's obligation to not let it get that far. Oh sure, get drunk, but the second you are being a negative ball of hate, sadness, or any other emotion that starts ruining the time of anyone else, drunk or sober, then you messed up.

I took minor things said viewed them as being way too personal. Granted, I been under a lot of stress because of work, but that's not a justifiable reason to go off on others. My father used to come home and take things out on me and my mother when I was younger. Granted, he never hit, or even truly screamed at us, but just the bad vibes and then unwritten "avoid dad for and hour or two so he can function like a normal human being" rule made me realize that those kind of actions are not the way I wish to handle stress. Well, I sure as hell messed up on Friday night.

So this blog is an apology to those who might have been hurt, annoyed, or even slightly irritated by anything I did. I am pretty sure most people just ignored it and chalked it up to be being very obviously drunk, but as I implied earlier, I hold myself to higher standards.

I like to have a good time here, and I consider many of you more than just "online friends." I don't want to ruin anything like that just because I been having a bad time outside the internet and I end up acting like a jerk hole.

(written at work very fast so there is probably a typo or two)