noxious.sunshine

I told my sister today that I'm going and she's actually excited for me. And she even said (on her own) that jobs would be easier to find that are within walking distance.

And pretty much said that I could stay with them the weekends that I fly home. Not in those words, but. Whatever.

So I feel a lot better about the situation. My sister is a lot more open minded about things like that ... As much as we don't get along for the most part... And I guess her opinion is the only one that rly matters since Parker lives with her right now.

huh. I just had a major epiphany/revelation thingy. I'll be damned.

I think my family's main issue with me isn't that I've made mistakes (big ones, for that matter), it's that I've finally found a voice with them and I no longer always follow their advice or do what they say and they don't like it.

My dad will always see me as 3 years old, but he's finally gotten that I'm almost 30 & that he missed out on so much of my life that he doesn't have much room to tell me what to do. I always respect my dad and I try not to argue with him, but I'm not afraid anymore to talk back when he crosses the line... And he knows that I'm gonna do what -I- think is best, even if it's not what he would do in whatever situation.

But anyway... I'm still really nervous to go, but I feel better knowing that my sister is more than okay with it and is willing to work with me on visiting.

...... Now I just have to tell the parental unit.