Life boat left without me
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, 12-27-2013 at 01:56 AM (2441 Views)
WARNING WARNING! HORRIBLY MELANCHOLY BLOG POST!
Yesterday i got home from the much shorter then i thought trip (hai shorty <3) and my friend who moved away 2 years ago stopped by with her parents to visit.
we used to go to school together before i had to leave and we kind of knew each other as far back as i can remember
she started telling me how good school is going and about her friends and i am really happy for her. we said are goodbyes and all that and then i realized how ... melancholy i felt. i felt really alone and i instantly wanted to go back 2 or 3 years ago and make things stay the way they were then.
i know i sound selfish and you guys know how happy of a person i am so this is weird for me. yesterday i thought it was just that day... but when i started thinking about it again i just cryed about it for a little bit. >.>
i miss her and i feel like i lost her friendship like its not the way it was back then. i am having a really hard time explaining it. i guess my health was a little better 2 years ago i miss that and i miss everything about the time i was able to spend with her
i know im rambling now but does anyone know how i feel? when does it go away? i saw her a few months ago and this did not happen why now? the truth is im scared o.o
it is so unlike me and it makes me feel selfish like im jealous of her or something. like i feel like i had a chance to be friends like we used to and i let it get away. i feel like the boat of her life that used to be part of mine just left without me.. and i am only now realizing it >.>
so yeah.. throw eggs or .. you know =D leave comments
Betsy