Night-terrors
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, 01-20-2011 at 11:52 AM (1836 Views)
I get night-terrors on occasion. If you're unfamiliar with them they are waking nightmares basically. I don't really want to get into describing how they come about because it's all over my head really.
I used to have them a lot when I was a kid, now I'm lucky enough to only have one or two a year. I can't even begin to describe what I see or the fear I experience. I understand that different people have varying degrees of intensity. Mine get pretty bad and last longer than I'd like them to.
At first I would just get up and wander around but after a while I started fighting people. Sometimes I'd just get up and run and do my best not to get caught. The last few years, when I have one, I try to harm myself. It sounds weird, and the circumstances behind my reasoning while "under the influence" make it even weirder, but I have no control over myself at those times.
The last few years I've had what I call "waking night-terrors" in which I feel the way I do during a night-terror but I'm fully awake. It's really weird. My vision slows down, like everything is in slow motion, but I move and talk at normal speed, which makes me feel like I'm going super fast. It's like I'm on drugs or something, it's really strange. Sometimes I worry about living on my own and having one. Or if I'm sleeping over at a girlfriend's house and I have one. How would that play out?
I'm not really sure why I'm blogging this. I had one of those waking ones a moment ago, and about a week ago I had a full on night-terror. I don't like that I had two so close together. Ah well, one good thing from them is that I've gotten some interesting writing material from the I've seen and felt.
I would go into detail about the things I've dreamt that cause them but this is weird enough to be blogging about here and putting it all out in public seems a bad idea. PM if any of you who may read this are curious about anything, though. I wouldn't mind talking about it privately with certain trusted people.