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I Need More Hot Women In My Life
by , 08-12-2011 at 05:34 AM (1507 Views)
I used to work at a bar restaurant, so most of my time was spent squelching my fury, working out math in my head to determine how long I had before I needed to speak with anybody at my many tables in order to make my customers feel like they were enjoying a genuine experience and looking at the rear ends of all the 18-25 year old babes who knew that wearing tights is a great way to make better tips. On the off days, I could walk up to one of them and say something like, "Man it's slow. At least you recently got a boob job. Otherwise it wouldn't be worth it working here," and it'd be totally cool because waiter chicks are cool like that. On the job anyway :/
FYI: Don't make a mistake with a local waiter. Rules change outside of work and with non-coworkers.
Anyway, my life is usually my work. I work long hours, write, sleep, and I kinda live a bizarre life where I enjoy my life as a work life, as opposed to clubbing, drinking or whatever.
So, my newest endeavor is something very worthwhile to me. A business I own, which makes my work more my life than even before. It is a noble business and a business that was born of inspiration and love and faith; however, my clients are far from gorgeous. Most of the people I speak to all day long are non-English speaking, old, impoverished- let's just say it. They aren't pretty. They're nothing to look at. It's all about helping and teaching and selling at good prices- providing something that these poor folks will have a hard time getting. And I'm suffering a little, but I'm determined to succeed in this venture.
But man do I miss the social atmosphere. I realize that my life of work and sleep is depriving me of the only thing that I care about aside from food, faith, sleep and exercise: women!
And I'm no womanizer. I am merely a man, and without beauty, a man has nothing to live for.
But anyway, I just like being able to talk to a young, smooth skinned, pretty eyed girl every so often. It's soothing. I don't care about romance, about sex, about potential for the future. It's just good to have some light, meaningless conversation with somebody who is easy on the eyes and the mind.
So maybe you tell me to go out and find a girl to talk to. I can do that, but going out means going on the prowl. And all the girls know that, even if I don't mean to be on the prowl. A lone guy in the environment of crowds of women scouring the night is always a potential threat, either Mr. Right or a creep. That's where the games and the hunt begins. That's when men compete and women flirt and want to be chased and the liquor flows and, well, it's work. I don't want the work because I don't want the sex, which is probably strange. Maybe I'm turning into an old man before 30. I just want the tranquility, since all I see is fairly unappealing. I think it's making me a little sour these days. I just kinda need a little bit of friendship outside of the fleeting, joking bromances I have with my closer guy friends.
I could go out and just look at people, but that's another monster. Again, for anybody who doesn't know, you can be surrounded by people and be utterly lonely. Sight and movement means nothing. If all I needed was that, I would watch a movie. Or porn (although I try to stay away from that stuff).
I kinda wish I was better at making friends.
I'm only good at making money, I suppose. And helping people (Helping people doesn't equal friends. It can, equal friends, but it's not the end-all when you're bad at it, like me.).
Perhaps mine is a high and lonely destiny.
If only my life truly sucked, I would feel sad for myself, but I can't because it doesn't. I just don't know how I'm going to find a solution before I start to uh, well, become really upset.
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