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Pumpkin

I'm not doing well.

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I have had limited time for sleep. I get home at 10pm (11 on mondays) and then I have to make dinner and then go to bed. By the time I get to bed it's generally pretty late and then I have to wake up early to go to work. I WAS supposed to work from 7am but they switched me to 6 am. It takes me about 40 minutes to walk there so I have to get up at 5 at the latest. 4:30 if I want to shower. My feet hurt like heck. I work until 1pm, unless I have driving lesson, then I finish at 11 and have a driving lesson from 11:30 - 1:30. My bus to go to school leaves at 2pm, then I'm stuck at school all night.

I also havn't been eating well. By the time I get back after work, I have to scarf down something really fast so I don't miss my bus. I don't have much room for a lunch and I don't want to be carrying another bag with the busses and walking I have to do so I pack light snacks that don't fill me up. Then I make something quick for dinner so that I can get to bed.

My relationship is seriously suffering right now. I try to spend time with him when I have the extra time but then I'm stressing because I feel I should be cleaning or doing homework or catching up on my sleep. The one weekend I have off is the 8th of October because it's the Thanksgiving long weekend so my mom is flying me over there on Saturday, then I get back on Tuesday and am heading straight to school so it's going to be hectic. On top of that that Tuesday (the 11th) is our five year anniversary and we will only get like an hour together that night.

My moods are completely unbalanced right now. I get sad really easily and I keep getting this re-occuring feeling that no one would care if I was gone.

Anyways, that's all for now.
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  1. Slothy's Avatar
    Well, for what it's worth, I'd care if you were gone.

    Damn that's a rough change switching you to starting work at 6am. I'm not sure what you can do about that. Maybe try explaining to your boss that you don't get home from school until around 10-11 pm and are running on around 5 hours of sleep. Maybe they'll be understanding and change your schedule to be a bit more accommodating.

    Do you get a day off anywhere in there at all? Or at the very least have several uninterrupted hours? Because as far as diet my only thought is that you can try making your meals, or at the very least your lunches and snacks, in advance on a day off. If you have the time it's really easy to just cook several pieces of chicken breast, or ground beef or something, prepare a week's worth of salads, etc. and toss them into separate tupperware containers. Then you can just put the chicken in with the salad the day of, have some dressing in a separate container, and it's all ready to go. And that stuff will easily keep for up to a week if you're preparing it fresh, not to mention cutting down on some of the stress of worrying about what you'll be preparing for yourself when you're pressed for time. If you can I'd also recommend taking fish oil. You can get it at plenty of drug stores or places like GNC. It can really help to even out your mood in my experience. Try to get stuff that has a decent concentration of EPA and DHA. You don't really need to understand what those are, just check the label. It'll list the amount of EPA and DHA on it. Combined they should be around 500 mg per capsule. Assuming you're average height and size for a woman you should be fine with taking 3-4 capsules a day. If you have trouble taking pills then you can get the stuff as just the oil without the pill capsule, and mix it into something else if you want to help cover up the taste.

    As to the relationship issues, I know how you feel. When I was still studying for my CA I was working full time, and studying/doing assignments almost every night. As if that doesn't put enough strain on the relationship, I was super stressed and starting to slip into depression. It's not easy, either on yourself or on your relationship. Hopefully your boyfriend is at least understanding of the fact that you're really busy right now, and that things like studying do have to be a priority.

    Also, if you feel as though you're getting too stressed out, or things are getting too hard to handle then make an appointment with your doctor, or check to see if your school offers access to counseling services. Most will, or will be able to point you to where you can get some. It can be tough dealing with that kind of a hectic schedule, and sometimes you just need to sit down and talk to someone. So if it feels like the crap is piling too high then try and find someone to talk to sooner rather than later.

    And one last thing, I'm just curious when you'll be done with the driving lessons? It seems like once those end you'll have a few extra hours in the day at least to help you fit in the other things that need to be done, and destress if needed.
  2. Pumpkin's Avatar
    I actually finished my lessons today, but now my schedule is stuck until 1. I talked to the manager about the schedule because on my application I said I can work from 7. She told me that they really do need me there at 6 because that`s when the morning rush is (I work in a restaurant branch that is renowned here for their coffee) and that`s what they hired me for.
    I will being doing groceries this weekend so I should be able to get some stuff I can cook in advance. It would save me some time. An extra hour of sleep is an extra hour of sleep. Thank you for the suggestion.

    Some good news: I passed my driving school with flying colors