Sad ramblings
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, 05-11-2015 at 03:56 AM (1822 Views)
I did some jogging today and I didn't run out of energy as quickly as usual, so that's a positive! And I've been working hard on my workouts
But I haven't trimmed down much or lost much weight and that makes me very sad. I feel like a tub of lard. I hate going out in public because I'm worried people are looking at me and thinking "Look at that fatass!" It's getting hot here and I can't even wear my shorts because I'm so worried about going out showing my fat thighs.
I know it's my own fault for letting it get to this point and I know I shouldn't care what strangers think. I think it just gets to me because it's what I think too. Like I can see everyone thinking what I think every time I look in the mirror and it makes me unhappy.
I guess all I can do is keep working towards my goal. I'm planning to start doing weights on the days I don't have my high intensity workouts and do some more on the spot jogging. I don't eat the healthiest because then I quit, but I have generally cut down on portion sizes and I eat much less in the way of unhealthy snacks.
It's a process. I'll try to get better and work harder and hope it pays off in the end. That's really all I can do