noxious.sunshine

I'm sorry for your cat, but I do think it's selfish and rude to post with reference to other EoFFers who have received help with crowdfunding, and essentially attempting to guilt the rest of the community for not donating to you.

I personally had no idea that your cat had been in an accident because it seems you removed me from your Facebook some time ago (that's fine, you do you) but you can't expect to have an out pour of support when you have been actively alienating members of the same community that you're asking for help from.

I'm sorry for your problems, and I hope you pull through this as it sounds like a sucky situation, but yeah, kind of out of order to bring in other crowdfunds in my opinion, Noxy.

I'm not really trying to guilt anyone. Like I said, I'm having a really rough week. It was just a general rant and venting frustrations and being depressed. I've apologized if I've sounded rude and all that. I know how bad it sounds, but am I not allowed to vent? To be a bit more fair, it isn't eoff. It's everyone else in general. I should have broadened the original post up to that rather than picking out EoFF and. That was a trout move on my part, and I really sincerely apologize. It's actually been nothing but eoffers who've donated. And 1 other person who donated directly to us rather than going through gofundme.

We've helped people countless times. You'd think Karma would be kind for once.

As far as the FB friends thing, it isn't really actively alienating people when they don't talk to me either, Tara. We can defo go there if you'd like, but I'd rather not. We don't talk, why be fb friends? People have unfriended me as well without any notice. Friendship is a two-way street. I know people get busy, but it's happened so many times that I start being friends with someone and then they abruptly stop talking to me and that's it. No mas amigos. A couple or 3 people I thought I was actually kind of good friends with have done it. And I'll leave it at that.

idk. I probably shouldn't even have attempted this.

We did get 2 more donations. And then I had another meltdown for like 45 minutes.

Again, I apologize. I shouldn't have singled out eoff. That was smurfed up of me. It's everyone else. Not you all. Although the bit about thinking pretty much everyone hates me is being sort of honest, though.

I'm honestly appalled at the reaction that some people have had to this post. The circumstances surrounding this are clearly extraneous and publicly lashing out amounts to little more than cyber-bullying. I really expected better.

I hope your cat's all good Nox, and that you stay safe from Garuda.

I'm a very polarizing person, apparently, mike. /shrug.

People seem to get pissed off at & hate me for the stupidest things.

Honestly, now that I've managed to get more than 2 hrs sleep, I've come to realize that there's no sense in being mad or upset over anything that may or may not have been said. Because the fact is, it's really really LMFAO that people let me get under their skin so much that they feel the need to insult, bash, and do whatever it is they do behind my back. I mean, I give props to those who had the balls to insult me to my face, but yeah.

If anyone ever goes through any of my posts on the forums, I'm about 97% sure you won't find anything I've said where I've called someone stupid, a bitch, ignorant, or any other names. Yet... You'll find many instances where -I've- been the one insulted.

If anyone is offended because I unfriended them on Facebook: It wasn't anything personal. I didn't just delete EoFFers. I removed quite a few people that day. Because we don't talk. I'm not going to keep people on my friends list that I hardly ever talk to 1-on-1 anyway. And yes, that IS in spite of MY OWN ATTEMPTS to reach out and be friends with those that I unfriended. No, I didn't unfriend anyone out of spite. And this is the part where I know people are going to be like "lol yeah okay nox whatever". I didn't. I don't feel the need to be friends with people I don't talk to ever at all. There are a few exceptions to that rule, but yeah.

Anyway... I apologized twice, and explained the circumstances behind the post. I wasn't trying to guilt or shame anyone into donating. It was a general rant and I wasn't aware that I'm not allowed to do that. I mean... Is it literally just me that's not allowed to have a bad day around here without repercussions?

Anytime anyone has ever insulted or tried to hurt me, I've never once received an apology. Yet... Here I am apologizing for offending people for something they shouldn't even be smurfing offended over? Yeah. Okay. That makes sense.

LOL Hell I've even apologized to people when THEY were the ones being an asshole to ME. Explain that one, eoff.

Y'all need to grow the smurf up.

And that's the last I'm saying on this matter.

If anyone has any issues with me- you know who you are (& I know that there's more than just 1 or 2 people that do have a problem with me)- feel free to PM me and confront me directly instead of running around and talking trout behind my back. Be a man/woman and come talk to me. Trust me, I can more than handle it . ^_~

In the words of Cait Sith: Right or wrong, I'm still the same 'ole me.

I know I'm an amazing smurfing person. I've never needed validation from any of y'all, though I'm very grateful for making the friends that I've made here. The eoffers I call my friends, I genuinely do consider my friends. They know who they are and they don't seem to have issues with my personality or how I am. They also don't have problems callong me out on my bulltrout when I'm being stupid. That's something I value in people: being able to address their problems with people directly rather than talking about it to other people.

I've never needed validation, and I've never cared what anyone here thinks of me, but this is getting stupid.