Goldenboko
has evolved into ULTROS
Gold is the new black

Uh-oh. What time is it? Columbus' season opener is on Friday night.

When is the next ball game?

Oh yeah. I forgot that.

You know, it's kind of ironic that Leen-Leen (a Filipino) is in Japan. Basically that's kind of like a Jew being in Germany (with them being former enemies in WW2). Then again, it's kind of silly to hold a grudge on a nation because of a former war which we weren't even alive during.

I don't know much about Filipino history. Japan attacking the Philippines is one of the few things I do know about though.

It's a shame Leen-Leen hasn't been around that much lately.

So you've shown it to some EoFFers already?

Well, I'm okay with not being shown it. But, if you were a girl it'd probably annoy me that I don't know if you're pretty or not.

Well if being inconfident about what others' think about your appearance is the only thing stopping you, I'd go for it. But I guess it might also be a bad idea since you can't ever take a picture of yourself back once you've posted it online (at least that's what I read on internet brochures).

...yeah. I'm one of those "by the book" people.

Seriously? I thought the same thing about my pictures until I started showing my pics to EoFFers.

Nobody thought of me as ugly. In fact, some actually found me quite attractive (rubah, Dixie, Lekana, kikimm, Leen-Leen, and Tempest).

Then again, I asked them if I was attractive right after the picture I posted so they'd obviously have to tell me their opinion. :rolleyes2

That still doesn't mean I'm going to become any less paranoid though.

In a way, I find it kind of fun since it keeps people guessing about me.

I'm glad.

I tend to be a bit of a respect freak (or fear-from-respect freak) which would explain why I didn't technically say "I'm sorry" to you and I just said "Just make sure it doesn't happen again" (I'm convinced that fear will enforce lessons on people more than compassion does). I also tend to depict myself as cruel and creepy at times (like that thread where I suggested that unused accounts should be deleted or when I was posting eyeball pics in your usernotes) so people will be afraid of me and stay away from me. I know it's wrong to get "respect" like that but getting it by earning it doesn't always work.

I know most of the time I'm wrong in holding beliefs as bitter as that. I tend to view it as "right" and "justified" when I'm angry though. So you basically just have to wait for me to calm down before talking some sense into me actually works. Although you disagreeing with me over things like that makes me mad some of the time in the end I really appreciate it.

On a more serious note, I'm now starting to understand how you felt when you came up with that birthday punch list for my birthday and how I didn't appreciate it.

Seriously, I kind of went through the same thing (check my convo with Momiji). Basically I said something to him and I thought he sounded kind of angry when he responded so I apologized. It turned out he wasn't angry at all and he was a little upset that I was being so paranoid and taking him so seriously. I explained to him that I tend to be really serious and considerate to people that I really respect and admire (I expect people to do the same for me so that's why I do that for others). He told me that he prefers if I loosen up and not be serious all the time.

I didn't really believe that that list of insults was your way of being friendly to me, but now that I realize that being friendly means different things for different people I understood how you felt about that now.

Also, I still technically haven't apologized for getting mad at you for that list so I want to say that I'm sorry for taking that list the wrong way.