*I think I've been getting much better at having a positive attitude. Aside from mildly ranting about subjects that annoy me here and there, along with letting a video game frustrate me to the point of giving my coffee table a good smack, I've been in a much happier place. Any curve ball that has been thrown my way be it at work or wherever I handled very well.
*I've been sort of flirting with the idea of losing weight by eating better and/or working out. The problem is that when I
One of my parent's cats had to be put to sleep today. He was a male cat named Big Mouth because of how loud and attentive he was. Long story short, my parents had crappy next door neighbors that just up and left three cats behind. One of them was Big Mouth. After taking care of them as strictly outdoor cats for awhile (they weren't sure if they wanted to bring them in with the existing cats they had at the time) they eventually brought them in.
Turns out that Big Mouth got FIV, which
I might have some sort of depression. It's hard to me to use an outlet that isn't self destructive to overcome some things. I have to remind myself that I have the power to change things. The question is if I have the courage to do it, and how my decision making makes other people feel. It's hard for me to do that because my opinion of myself is so low at times I think that I am incapable of hurting (or affecting any kind of strong emotion) other people because I am simply not that important.
EDIT: Holy crap. I was in a bad mood about my father overrating to stuff earlier that day while I was on a sleeping pill. I said some pretty bad things. I went to delete this, but I can't so I rather put up this explanation of what the heck was going on. Things are better now. Well, rather, things were fine to begin with, but an altered state of mind rarely goes good with a bad mood.