Yourself now vs. yourself 2 years ago.

How would you compare yourself now?

2 years ago, I would've looked at the lottery to ending all of my problems. Now, I look at myself as the solution to all of my problems. 2 years ago I would've sat mindlessly playing games like FFX-2 or some crap like that. Now, I don't even play games. 2 years ago I would've thought my studies were boring, but now...I look at studies as pretty exciting. I squeal at a new chapter in a math text.

2 years ago I wanted to quit my cashier job and just let my mother pay for my tuition(thank god I didn't). Now, I can't imagine myself jobless and schooless.

I don't know what changed me, but I feel like I have some purpose in life now. It's such a great feeling. I love being able to pay for my own tuition, and I love the fact that I'll never play games again. It's so damn weird. 2 years ago I never would have said these things.

Honestly, if there's a billion dollars and not being able to teach compared to 35k/year teaching, I'd teach hands down(I know I've said this before). Don't you hate it when something changes you so much but you don't know what it is?

Two years ago I think I was more optimistic than I am now. That's about the only difference.

Two years ago I was angrier than I am now, and slightly more stable. Its like the angry part and the nice/happy part of my are trying to split into two separate personalities.

Two years ago I was even more happy-go-lucky and I was very naive and very very innocent and n_n

Now I've toughened up a bit! And become less naive! And less innocent! And sexier of course though I dunno how that's possible! ...*cough* Ok maybe scratch the last part. xD

And two years ago I was a monkey n_n

Hmm...2 years ago...I was *thinks* 17? Year was 2002, grade was 11th. Let's see what's changed:

2 years ago I was more concerned with how I was ever gonna get a PS2 so I could play FFX rather than my school work. Now school is practically my life and I don't play games.

2 years ago I was highly anti-military...just a few months ago I was in the military.

2 years ago I couldn't wait to turn 18...now I'm 19 and all the reasons WHY I wanted to be 18 haven't happened, but all the curses have and I am now dealing with them.

2 years ago I made a big deal out of Christmas and my birthday, and expected something significant on both days...now, they pretty much come and go without me or anyone else seeming to care much.

2 years ago I would have refused to listen to anything even relative to Britney, NSYNC, Backstreet Boys, ect., and would only listen to things like KoRn and The Offspring...now I just listen to whatever the hell I want to, which is a bit of everything.

2 years ago I could sit and play a new game for 10 - 15 hours straight...now I can barely sit and do anything for 1 hour.

2 years ago I wanted a car...now I'd pay you not to give me a car.

2 years ago I could care less how I looked when I walked out the door...now I seem to care alot about how I present myself.

2 years ago I hated Oklahoma...now I pretty much hate life in general, including Oklahoma and the entire southern region of the United States.

So yeah, a few things about me have changed mentally, but my life situation hasn't changed at all and has overall gotten worse.

Actually, I just wrote about this in my livejournal, only it was about one year ago. :D

And two years ago, I was more stable but less happy... I guess.

Me 2 years ago hmmm....id like to say that the biggest difference is that right now....im pretty comfortable with myself....dont get me wrong there are some moments where im still trying to find myself n stuff but overall im just....alright with myself....still trying to take stuff not too seriously round home!!

2 years ago i was in grade 10.....Looking back i felt i was over the top....trying to be everyones friend and for a moment i was but thinking about i was being abit of a poser these days i just take a step back and breathe (literally and metaphorically speaking....free from exams yay lol)

....its all good

ps. AMAZING RACE WENT TO THE PHILIPPINES....IM IN LOVE WITH THAT SHOW!! :D

God. Me at 12. I don't even wanna go there. I was insane and I posted terrible here like "^.^ lolz" and stuff. I was naive too. I prefer myself now. Plus when I was 12, I had a weird really low singing voice. My singing voice is much better now and I'm used to singing really high, so I wouldn't wanna change that/

I was happier then. But I was a lot less intellegent. I've also become a lot more boring of a person.

I haven't changed all that much, really.

2 years ago, i had little respect for myself (shows how unhappy my past was)....now i've regained all the love for myself
i was afraid of the dark........ :love: the dark
was horrible in school.....i'm alot better now :D
had no internet........Yay! i do now :D
had little friends in the same class..........yay more friends now
i was quiet......now i won't shut up :D
shy like hell.......still the same :p
2 years ago I would've given just about anything to have what i have now :D

Two years ago I was lot happier but I was was also an ignorant, judgemental, shallow person. I used to think very highly of myself, not that I would have acted arrogantly, but I was self-assurred to the nth degree. I would have not wanted to be seen in school with people that were seen as "uncool", even if I thought they were nice people. This was because I felt like I had a reputation to uphold. I became obsessed with my image, wearing only designer clothing and excercising until my bones ached. I would run away from the things about myself that I didn't like or rather, didn't think I should've liked.

For example, the fact that I played computer games and even more so that I preferred the "uncool" RPG genre. I changed the truth to suit myself. Told people what I felt they wanted to hear. All this seemed to work though. I was very popular in school, had a gorgeous (but also narrow-minded, shallow and judgemental) girlfriend that made me the envy of my friends, I was very good at sport and done well in school.
But, under the surface I felt empty. My girlfriend and I struggled to talk about anything besides petty stuff and I never really felt comfortable with her. I would hate it when she asked me things about my life. I didn't like the subject and didn't tell her things that I should have like the fact that I was bed-ridden for a year because of an illness when I was 14. Which is another kind of lie as I wasn't ill, just so disgusted at myself and wanting to die that I feigned illness for a year to not have to face the world. :cry:

Ok, drifting from the subject a BIT there! Overall I'm a better person now than I was two years ago. I couldn't care less about "reputations" or "image" now and don't care much for what anyone thinks of me but I was happier 2 years ago.

2 years, eh? I think I was a lot worse off 2 years ago than I am now, to be perfectly honest. 2 years ago, my life as I knew it was crumbling around me, whereas now I have a stable job (which allows me to surf the internet between calls!), a stable home, enjoyable hobbies, and a cute little kitten. 2 years ago, I was still on staff and already had lost the "magic" that being staff here initially held.

Make it 4 years ago, and you have a totally different story. Even though 4 years ago, I had limited internet access and no job, I was just as happy as I am now, albeit stupider and less self-sufficient. 2 years ago, the MTX lyric "A shadow of my former self, which wasn't all that great" applied to me. 4 years ago and today, I'm living a better life. Difference being, today I can afford lots and lots of beer, and I have a community on FFXI that matters to me as much as EoFF mattered to me 4 years ago.

Me vs Me?

I think I could beat me from two years ago in a fight, easily.

...Wait, no I couldn't, I had a metal bat back then.

At this time 2 years ago I was in boot camp so I'll go a little farther back then that.
At the time I changed jobs every few months or so. I went between different fast food places and other minimal wage jobs where I was always low on cash. Now I have a garunteed paycheck and can afford to have a hobby or go out to have fun once in a while. I still play video games as a main hobby it's just nice to know I have other options. I play games a lot less.
At the time I was always partying with friends. Drinking plus ... seemed to be all their really was for us to do and it was fun. For a whole summer I only came home once or twice a week to sleep before going off somewere again. Many good memories came from it though. Now it varies, but a majority of my weekends are spent hanging outside the barracks with a beer or two with the rest of the barracks soldiers. It feels really empty.
At the time (and still) I had some great friends. I've known "Sweetpea" for 8 years now, Cher for 5, Rich for 8, Jeff for 3, and my cousin my whole life. Others were around but I considered these my real friends. I had a very close relationship with each of them in our own way and it was nice having the fellowship. Now, I still see them when I go home, but where I'm at I don't have any real friends. There's people I talk to and work with but no real friendsiip. It's pretty lonely.

All in all, I can say 2 years ago I was happier but now I have more of a future to look forward to. I loved my simple lifestyle and miss it very much but don't regret it. I knew I had to do something to start a future and started down it when the time came. Now isn't the best of times but in 2 years I'll go back home to a better place for me and have a way to live and I'll enjoy it very much.

2 years ago I was a much happier person. I was much more carfree. But now I'm older and smarter :smash: and in college :p