Taking a 180

Idk Psy just sounds bald. Maybe it's the avatar? I've honestly never seen a single picture of him. His posts just have this bald... quality

You know, there was one time when some people wanted me to drop everything and just go to the music academy and become a contratenor, because there's like three in Poland. I don't really regret declining that opportunity, but I do sometimes wonder what my life would look like then.

Sometimes I think about starting a YouTube channel, or going to film school or music theatre or something but, like Del, I think I kind of lack that courage. Pursuing what I'm pursuing now is pretty involving as it is, so I wouldn't even really wanna give up on it and just do a 180, because I know that if I did that, I would regret abandoning this. And who knows - maybe someday I can make something big with it.

Oh you want to see a pic of me? sure look at this very recent thread i made http://home.eyesonff.com/showthread....Face-challenge!

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Originally Posted by Fynn

Sometimes I think about starting a YouTube channel, or going to film school or music theatre or something but, like Del, I think I kind of lack that courage. Pursuing what I'm pursuing now is pretty involving as it is, so I wouldn't even really wanna give up on it and just do a 180, because I know that if I did that, I would regret abandoning this. And who knows - maybe someday I can make something big with it.

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Oh, yeah. Add the revisions to my YouTube channel to the list. There was a time where I wouldn't even show pictures of myself, let alone entire video footage with my voice to boot. Now I do it on the weekly basis. The experience have been pretty amazing and has boosted my confidence and self image to heights I wouldn't have thought possible before.

I don't know if this really counts, but throughout my early and mid teens I was convinced I was going to become a scientist. Right up until I started A-level, science was what I was aiming for, and literature was just something I studied for fun. Now, here I am doing an English Lit degree.

I think it links quite closely to a fundamental change in my viewpoint. I used to be a hard-line atheist empiricist. Everything had to add up and be quantifiable. I enjoyed literature and poetry, and even had an academic interest in religion and philosophy, but I didn't think it really had anything worthwhile to say about truth or reality. Then, at some point at around about 16 or so, all that fuzzy, mystical stuff which I had before dismissed as irrelevant started to make sense, whilst all the equations and numbers made less and less sense. From being top of my class in Physics, Biology and Chemistry up till then, I got a D at A-level. The numbers just didn't fit like they used to, and not just academically. Science was no longer the absolute explanation it once was. It was if I saw the world with new eyes.

I hardly recognise that hard-line, atheist empiricist now. I see the world so differently to how I did then. I still have a keen amateur interest in science, but it's no longer the be-all and end-all which it was. It's just one way of looking at the world, not the only way.