The Journal Thread (October)

Hey,

Don't really know what to say - things just seem to really be getting to me lately. I'm feeling depressed and having a hard time shaking it - maybe I just need to get out more. I was out for a while last night and I felt better until I got home so...ya, I don't know.

I am going home for Thanksgiving on Wednesday night and I am looking forward to that - I think it will do me some good to go home for a 6 days. I love it here in Toronto but things are less...complicated in Owen Sound I guess. Maybe I just need some time to clear my thoughts.

Guess that's about it for today - Joey should be getting back tonight so at least I won't be sitting around in my room again.

Oh ya, I found out that Tammy has a boyfriend so that is a pretty big let down but I just have to keep telling myself that it is not the end of the world. There are pleanty of females here at college - just gotta keep going out and doing my best to meet them.

Hmm...guess the last thing is that I am bringing up my dressier clothes so that I will be able to go out to the clubs on the weekends and I won't have to worry about the style or dress codes and such.

Ciao

AAAaaaargh!!! I hate people sometimes!!!

I've been having difficulties on the LAN I manage with the new version of the Flash plugin (version 6), where it was crashing IE every time someone browsed to a site using Flash. I found a way to quickly restore the previous version of Flash (which worked fine) over the LAN by replacing and renaming one file. Well, I had been posting in Macromedia's forums asking about a solution to the problem, and I posted my solution to that forum as a SUGGESTION, saying that "it worked for me, it was quick and easy, and I could do it over the LAN".

This contradicted someone else's previous solution, which called for much more extensive changes (registry entries and such). So, this other guy writes a sarcastic post in reply to mine, flaming me for passing on my solution! He said "You shouldn't post something if you haven't tested it on every platform and you're sure it'll work for everybody." WTF?!!! I made a point of saying that it probably isn't the correct way to fix it, but that it worked for me! If this is the kind of gratitude I get for trying to help, then maybe I should just forget trying to assist people with their computer problems!!!

Whew. Thanks for letting me yell. I feel better now.

Did journal, today, I went to class, it was fine. I did my works that I missed, and stuff. I also splitted a thread. Yay. :)

there is some crazy sniper killing people randomly somewhere in the US (I forgot where, kill me). I dont know what to say, or think. Nobody has the right to take the life of another, and that crazy guy seems to be choosing randomly.

BOOYAKA!!

I've just gotten over a cold. Heh...sure glad it's gone. I'm gonna need all the help i can get in choir when i return to school. Our October concert is drawing near...and still it seems so far away ::dreamy sigh:: of course it wont be as big as the Christmas concert. Ah, i look forward to that every year. Teehee we barley even know our Christmas music, but we learn fast so it shall be good....i know it will!!

Well that is about it.......

Au Revoir :choc:

Journal Entry: October 15th, 2002.

Mood: Good - and slighly giddy.

Music: Vanessa-Mae.

Dear Journal, today has been a rather good day. I'm in a good mood (which is quite unusual), and I've had an acceptable day at work. Rather than typing newspaper articles 'till my eyes bleed, I've been doing a bit of everything. Checking, sorting, filing and labour have been added to 'the list', and I'm pleased to be taking part in some different activities. I do enjoy my job, but performing the same tasks over and over again can become quite depressing. Christine has been treating me well recently, compared to the way she normally treats me. Some of you may have seen the thread I made in EoEo a while back, and if you did, there's no need to reply to it now. I believe we have sorted out our differences, and she is treating me in a much more acceptable manner, now.

I went to see the Fast Show last night. Yes, that's the English comedy show that stars Paul Whitehouse. Considering I've only seen a few episodes on TV, the show was surprisingly funny. However, the unnecessary use of disgusting sex scenes and bad language ruined it. I thanked my Friend, Alex for inviting me along, and it was a rather good night out. I appreciate invitations from people, as I don't have many Friends, and I never usually get out of my house.

Posting at EoFF is becoming much more fun. This place certainly has improved in recent years, and the thread ideas are not half as stale as they used to be. Hopefully, some people will volunteer to help me out with my new radio project that is located in the General Chat forum. If not, I shall have to persuade some other Friends to do it. The problem is, I want American accents, and I can't get those here in England. >_<

Only 3 more working days 'till my Holiday in Harlech. I love that place, and I really feel at home there. The scenery is wonderful, the people are friendly, and we will be looking around museums and old Castles, which are some of the nerdy things that I personally enjoy taking part in. My Hotel room has it's own bathroom, so I'm looking forward to some private relaxation. I'm going to have a nice hot bubble-bath, read a book and listen to some calming music. I really need a break from work, and this holiday will do the trick, I believe.

I hope you EoFFers have enjoyed peeking into my uneventful life. Farewell until next time, Journal.

Came back to eoff today! ^_^

It's become a mighty fine place. Really big and all. It's sad no one remembers me though. Ah well, I geuss i can restart my legacy.

Schools not so bad. It's ben really hard but i love the soccer team, and I love just being there. Im doing pretty good in all subject to try and get into the highschool I like.


Well thats all. Signing off.

~Lethal

Hmm...where to start?

Well, this past Thursday I had one of the most enjoyable nights of my life. I still can't believe what happened with that chick from Israel - the SECOND I see her again I am going to ask her out for dinner or a drink. Fun!

Things really seem to be on the up and up for me right now; and that is a good thing. It may only stay like that for a short time but it is a welcome change from the way things are a lot of the time.

I think I have decided to travel when I have my reading week in March - I am just not sure where I should go. Things are so expensive these days; but then again it is only money so maybe I should just stop worrying about it and enjoy the ride.

Got a test in 20 minutes in that stupidly easy computers course - I am sure that Joey and I will have it done in about 45 seconds! I still can't believe that some of the courses I am taking are 1)considered to be college level and 2)are giving many of the people so many problems!

Heh, the food from the cafe made me sick last night - I was complaining over Y!M only minutes before I went down there and got an nice uncooked piece of chicken. Then I find out that the cafe only has a yellow (conditional) health regulation pass - if they don't clean up their act the government is going to shut them down. Bloody hell - I eat so little as it is and now the only things I did want to eat there are making me sick; I really wonder what I am going to do now. Ha! Maybe I should go and raise a giant stink about things and get myself thrown out of residence - then I could get my apartment a year early!

Well it looks like it is time to go - class starts in about 10 minutes.

Ciao!

Ah, another day of whatever. I didn't really do much today, and iM pretty tired. Good night.

Hey Sonic.


Well today I started Work Study. It's where you work after school for your tuition. It wasn't that bad. Well, I'll be doing that every day after school until Christmas Break. I better start getting used to it.

:rabite: :shoot:

Today I got up and survived only off of iced tea...

It hurts so much. I require precious substenance. I think I'll stop writing in the diary and get food to survive.

So hungry...

Well, things went the way I thought they would with that chick from Israel - I have tried to talk to her 3 times since Thursday and have been snubbed each time. Guess the fun we had was just a spirit of the party kind of thing. As a result of this things have really been bugging me and I have started working out twice as hard as I normally do - sure I am sore right now but at least things arn't bothering me. I worked out as hard as I could yesterday and today and things seem a little better now. Exercise really is the best cure for anger.

Got a marketing test tomarrow and I should read over my last section of notes for a little while this afternoon and then probably I will get together with Joey and study for a while tonight. I am not worried about the test - I find all these business course pretty easy.

I am going to stay at Matt's this weekend - going to talk to him tonight to find out if I am going there Wednesday night or Thursday morning. Paul is going head to Matt's place to so it is going to be GREAT fun. Then I will head back to residence on Sunday. This will help me to forget about things!

Ciao.

Hey diary, Stuff goes and I'm still here ,What am i to do?

Damn sony and their antimodchip ways! Another attempt of a Magic 2 Modchip in a ps2, falure! This is my 4th total modchip installation. 2 on psx, 2 on ps2...
Started looking into these things called clips that make installing so much eaiser by reducing the number of wires that need sauderd from 20+ to just 5! *ponders why i never heard of these things before...*
This concludes my entry for october 27th, 2002.
*looks at modchip*
evil.......

Music - Creed
Mood - Unsure

Entry the 2nd (hopefully my computer will not freeze this time!)

Hey,

Kind of a weird day. Things were pretty good for most of it but got kind of bad after dinner. Not as bad as last Tuesday but still bad nonetheless. I just went sleep for about 2 1/2 hours and when I got up I was feeling better. I worked out for a while after and that made me feel even better.

I saw Limour at the elevator tonight and talked to her for a minute. I think I am going to ask her to have a drink with me on Thursday - I have said that before but I think I have the confidence to do it now. I may be shot down but you know what? I may not be so I might as well try.

Got a humanities test tomorrow on politics and the inhumnaity of mankind. Pretty easy but I am going to study with Joey for a while tomorrow morning because he seems to be a having a bit of trouble with some of it. Oh well, I don't have a problem doing that.

Paintball was great fun last night - I was fun to go out with the people from residence and just let loose and have fun.

I should get going and take a shower - I don't think I will spend the rest of the night covered in sweat!:p

Just found out this forum existed. This month was filled with both uncertainty, and a lessened state of uncertainty.

I broke up with my GF shortly after the month began. It was difficult, because while she kissed me (I guess to make me feel better), she wouldn't two days later. I had no idea how she really felt, despite her telling me that she didn't want it to end this way (or whatever...she didn't say that, but she didn't want it to be like this. It's not something I can phrase).

So there were weeks where I tried to be friendly, but at the end of the week my 'rebound' state of mentality got to me and I told her bluntly that I needed time off. I signed off aim and icq, and ambitioned to leave for a month at least.

At the end of the weekend I returned, and by then my ex was so upset that she gave me some sort of 'hmph' version of silent treatment. Like she would talk to me, but not very well. She eventually told me that she didn't like it when I left, and that she was worried about me. We became friends again, and I had no problem chatting with her.

That is until I visited. It quickly became one of those weekend retreat thingies, if you know what I mean. I couldn't get away with much outside of the bedroom, but it was almost as if we were together again....at least the intimacy part. I almost got lost in the moment; completely forgot that we weren't together.

Now we're just chilling. It's all good.

Music - Creed - Little Sister
Mood - GREAT!

What a great night last night. Robin invited me to that party and I had a hell of a good time, met lots of great people, was invited to another party in November and...there was one other thing....hmm....oh ya! My first kiss ever! (As well as several others!) Oh was that ever great, all that depression, anger and other unpleasant stuff was suddendly washed away. Good thing I changed my mind and decided to go to the party - had I not I would not have met Shin Ae and would probably be sitting here feeling down like I had been so many other days.

Funny how life can be, things can seem to not have any end in sight and everything can be building up so that you can't handle it and this sort of thing happens and everything seems to look better. Fun fun.

Well, looks like the game between the Leafs and Canadians is starting soon - GO LEAFS GO!

Ciao

And this makes 3 journals, all on the net, all were ppl can see them.....
.......natch! >.O
Oh well, like anyone would be daft enough to want to read my life XD
I feel better today, a bit anyway
I also feel like I am getting less and less attached to life, more now, I find myself annalysing things that I often took for granted
I also find myself volunteering information to certain ppl, even when I felt I never would
Its kind of scary to realise I trust certain individuals that greatly..
Actually.. no its not.. but it is.. ack
*shoots instincts*
^^ hmph! yes it IS!
I feel more of a comedian these days too
I find myself cheering ppl up a lot, even ppl i dont really know, much to my suprise
Dads out
Go to karate.. stay in.. go to karate.. stay in...
Stay in *nods*
I'll go on Tuesday
I wont get in for Christmas gradings now anyway
*snaps wrist*
Must stop doing that.. But it helps me think.. dam..
I feel so unimportant right now
Like everyone around me dosent really see me
I feel.. like a little dot at the end of a sentance, unnoticed, but still there
I feel
Like ending it all? No.. not yet.. I guess I just want some action, something to happen. Something exciting to get me thinking again
I got added to a conv with all the other ppl of a different forum last night, I was happy, til i realised it was all in-jokes i didnt understand..
nOObness... _-_
At least I still have friends, and sometimes ppl i dont expect it from
DT is still a really close friend to me, which makes me very happy ^^
Oh well
Enough of this, I should go.. do.. something.. or.. yeah, I cant write much here yet, cos I'm not confident enough, ppl tend to read the post of ppl new to journals so I'll leave all the important stuff til no-ones looking!

~Celeste

Darn! :useswordsthatcanttype: WHY?All I everwanted was to learn cant take that from me can you?that too ? arrgh! I want my frelling subjets ahhh!:punches wall: ow






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