I'm interested in Psychology, but due to the fact I have OCD and schizophrenia in remission and still have issues hearing about it (I can talk about it fine) I ended up dropping out of my psychology class.
I don't mind talking or hearing about OCD because.. it's a very commonly misused and misunderstood disorder but I don't like hearing about schizophrenia since I don't actually remember my episodes.. and yeah, hearing about it just makes me question my sanity. xD The second I found out that there was going to be a couple of months devoted to the mental disorders I have/had suffered from I ended up going in panic attack mode.
Psychologically speaking... since I don't remember my episodes of schizophrenia I treat them as if they don't exist, while when I hear about my episodes I tend to treat them as if they were a dream or they happened to someone else. When I hear about effects and possible actions associated with schizophrenia as a whole, I treat that as if that could be me in the future which then makes me wonder and worry about how sane I really am, and how sane other people could be while suffering from long term distructive disorders in remission.
I feel that I can't reassociate myself with a disorder I have no concious memory of, which until I can associate myself with the disorder and accept the fact that the mental state and who I was is different than myself now, I won't be able to handle anything talking about it.
Most people want me to be a therapist because they come to me for advice and such, and I would love to be like a school psychologists but saddly I'll have to gain alot more mental stability before I can handle even going into another Intro. to Psych. class.![]()