Or a baby fence.

I basically have to keep busy, or I get really depressed. It doesn't always work and I should probably be on some sort of meds for it, but I can't afford it and my parents would probably not take me to get them because I don't think they actually believe in a lot of mental illness, and with this family, anything close to it (like my brother's condition) is swept under the rug for a more acceptable thing, like, in his case, a "speech" problem.

So yeah, how I deal with things is to have work, class, lessons or some form of tutoring to keep me occupied. I can't be stagnant. If I have free time like I do these two weeks before college, I have to force myself to go do things.