[ mood | crushed ]
So.. I feel awful.. I;ve spent my entire nite crying, I played with my knife (only one cut this time but still..) and the only thing that would have made me feel better this goddamn weekend was going to see Jon... but nope... can't do that.. this weekend is friend weekend. >_< I was going to drive 7 smurfing hours to see him and surprise him...I guess it's better I found out before I left tomorrow afternoon huh? ;_;
I guess I'll just sit on my ass and play final 9 this weekend... straight through because I'm pathetic and have absolutely nothing better to do than that. So.. I won;t be online this weekend. I might not ever come back.. I haven't decided yet. I just know that right now I feel terrible... and all I want to do is curl up into a ball and die...
