I am fat and ugly and annoying... I have a great anger problem and I cant stand it to such an extent that I want the feeling gone as soon as possible, so I cause myself physical harm, normally by hitting myself in the head with a wooden hammer or a book. My mother has no idea I do this, and it bugs me. Every time my mother says something to me, I get angry or if she asks me to do something, I complain. I cant ever just do something because that makes me feel like I am weak and just doing whatever someone wants me to. I hate myself very much, but I am not an outcast. I have friends, and they dont have any idea that I am border-line emo... No one does...