Guilt

[Rye]

Do you feel guilt easily, EoFF?

When I was a young child, I felt guilt almost constantly. I'd feel guilty about the things I'd think, and I'd blurt them out, and they'd something be hurtful and cause me even more guilt. It made me so miserable for a number of years.

Now, I never seem to sweat the big things, but I feel extreme guilt about small mistakes. For example, my phone bill. My phone has a touch screen with auto-lock, but it's a bit temperamental and I have a million things jostling about in my pocketbook, so sometimes it'll get unlocked and will do a bit of butt dialing, though instead of dialing numbers, it likes to go online. I guess, doing this, it must have accidentally subscribed to some small thing or two, because the next bill was $10 more than usual, though at the time I wasn't aware of the accidental subscriptions. My Mom was a little annoyed until she discovered it was a mistake, and she just told me to be more careful.

Now, today, I got my new bill for the month, and it was still a few extra dollars in charges - and I finally discovered and canceled the subscriptions. I only owe $5 to my Mom for the extra charges, and it's nothing she'd even bring up, but I feel so guilty it's driving me crazy. I want to shake her awake and confess and give her money until she forgives me.

Yet, big things, I feel no guilt over. Just small things, and weird things like laughing at photos of people who are smiling - no matter how goofy the photo is, if they're smiling genuinely, I feel so guilty that I could cry if I laugh. I guess I'm just weird.

[NeoCracker]

I can't think of a time I"ve ever felt guilty actually.

[Momiji]

I used to have a conscience that would make me literally feel ill if I didn't right a mistake I made.

Whether it's fortunate or not that I've adjusted to the self-nagging and basically told the angel on my shoulder to stuff it is subjective.

[Jessweeee♪]

My parents tell me that I'd cry and punish myself for even thinking of doing anything wrong when I was little. This must have changed by the time I was three or four because for as long as I can remember I've been more concerned about whether or not I could get away with it rather than worrying about right and wrong.

[Momiji]

My parents tell me that I'd cry and punish myself for even thinking of doing anything wrong when I was little. This must have changed by the time I was three or four because for as long as I can remember I've been more concerned about whether or not I could get away with it rather than worrying about right and wrong.

I was similar to that, in a way. When I was little, I used to have a conscience so strong that I'd have a breakdown whenever I was thinking of something even as simple as a bad word.

[Rye]

Same here. It's the way my parents raised me. My Mom believed that the best way to be sure a child would be safe is to scare the ever loving christ out of the them so they're afraid of doing ANYTHING wrong. xD

[Fonzie]

Same here. It's the way my parents raised me. My Mom believed that the best way to be sure a child would be safe is to scare the ever loving christ out of the them so they're afraid of doing ANYTHING wrong. xD

Good Lord, my parents did the same thing.

[Tavrobel]

Mine employed dark closets and ruler hitting.

No, I don't feel guilt unless I've crossed several lines and broken a victim's toes by stepping on them without mercy.

[Bunny]

I only feel guilty if what I've done involves a person I care about.

Which is to say I never feel guilty.

[Vermachtnis]

I'm not guilty at all. If I wrong someone I'll get whats coming to me, if nothing bad happens than they obviously deserved it and karma agrees.

[Namelessfengir]

i used to feel guilty but then i realized that i dont give a damn

[Araciel]

I recognize the word guilt but don't understand it fully. I don't often feel much guilt.

[Levian]

I hate owing money and will go out of my way to repay it as soon as I can. If I don't, I'll forget it and then they'll hate me forever thinking I did it on purpose.

On the other hand I always forget what I borrow people so it's always a pleasant surprise when I get it back. It kinda sucks if we both forget about it, but I guess since I don't remember it, I won't be bothered by it either.

also, guilt is the worst disease eva. Everyone who's played Trauma Center knows that if you had guilt, you'd definitely feel it.

[eestlinc]

are you Catholic? that's usually where guilt comes from.

I'm a horrible (as in ineffective) liar, so I must feel guilt when I do bad things.

[G13]

I used to think that I'd never do anything bad enough to feel guilty about, but when I did I realized that I don't feel guilty, and that makes me feel guilty.