Given the context I'm guessing "HOmo", but I could be wrong
There's lots of people I just don't initiate conversation with. I'm not a small talky kinda person. There's got to be a catalyst. I've tried. It always fails though. There just has to be something. 'Cause I can't stand awkward conversations. That just leads to even more not talking'ness. But yes. Lots of people I've wanted to get to know. Lots of people I've lost connection with. And lots of "I don't know what to say" :/