So, I decided I liked this music but my "old friend" stop talking to me after I expressed a interest in it.
People don't understand, but I don't fault them. There's many human stereotypes and generalizations that have been programmed into them socially since birth to alienate me. Maybe something is wrong with me, i don't know...Maybe, but I'd like to think that some day, when I'm ready I'll find some one, or something in my life that allows me to see things clearly. Because I'm confused why I can't make any friends, why I choose to ignore people I think I could care about. I don't have the answers.
So, I write poetry on occasion, and try to find other ways to feel what's inside of me. Strong forces are at play and I'd like to think all of these things are significant and beautiful in some way. I enjoy metal music, I appreciate it. Now , my only friend, who was a old friend, in about 5 years is alienating me because he's afraid of me, or at least judges me.
On this some what emo note, I don't like emo music.
Anyways, that is off topic. I'm just saying people don't understand the genre.