Not saying until they announce it, then I can explain. (Again, a problem of just incase I get traced to here!) Nothing exciting, really.Originally Posted by Psychotic
It's more an issue of me wanting to be open and talk about stuff online, stuff I'd talk about with friends, but obviously online anyone could see it! It's not like I'd go around naming people if I had a bad day at work or anything damaging, but if someone put a couple of hours into it they could link me to his username and anyone could find "my" conversations with friends. An average person probably wouldn't go through that much effort, but someone has done that to my stuff before and it really makes me hold back when I post. They saw old stupid online dramas and knew loads of stuff that I hadn't told them yet but would probably have eventually because none of that stuff matterred anyway, but it wasn't on my terms.
I used to love forums because you'd be talking with like-minded people about a common interest, but that's made me feel rather vulnerable and wary and I haven't stuck around on a forum since because I feel like I'm looking over my shoulder all the time. I'm not worried about work, I don't think they'd care. I just really miss that sense of community that forums have and I'd like to not have to worry about friends etc finding stuff that's said in my "me time". It's just so much easier to say what you want on your own terms online... except not anymore.
The new job making me slightly more public doesn't bother me, It's just the knowledge that that makes it faster and easier for a certain type of person to track down slightly more casual and personal snippets about you that bothers me.
Facebook is personal, I share family holiday photos etc. Twitter is public, I'll share the one flattering photo of me doing something impressive. Forums are a big party/ wedding type situation where it's fun to make new friends and chat with while having a drink and feeling relaxed, but I don't feel relaxed because I feel like someone is listening in or talking about you even if the conversation ultimately doesn't matter, and that puts me on edge.
Does that make sense? I guess it's just plain ol' paranoia *sigh*
Trying to get over that by posting about it I guess
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