Okay, you'll most likely crack a smile or think less or me, but here I go!

I had some serious issues concerning my self-confidence, purpose and direction in life. I felt insecure about practically everything and I was constantly doubting myself in every single aspect of my life.

I have always been relatively nice to look at, or so people have told me my entire life. "What a cute child", or "you should try out modelling", and superficial crap like that. It seriously destroyed my self-perception. For years and years I practically ate nothing and it got so bad, and I hit 55 kg. Now, being a grown man of 23 (I'm 25 now) and 5'10" that is disturbingly minimal.

Now, I am not kidding you when I tell you that FFVII once again pulled me out of the abyss. I know I sound like a pathetic fanboy and whatnot, but the impact a single game and the memories of playing it can have on you, is without equal and should not be undermined or ridiculed. When I hit 55 kg, I was told by my doctor that I had to start eating or I would eventually shut down. Where was I? Oh, I heard a piece of "Anxious Heart", I don't recall where or when, but all of good memories came flooding back. I started playing the game again, and I slowly began to recover. Not saying that it alone did the trick, but it kick-started the recovery process.

What do you think? Why do you think a simple game like this one could hold so much power? I mean, I've been asking myself the same question over and over again. It's a freaking computer game.

Wow, been meaning to get that off my chest for a long time.