2012 - Your year in review

[TrollHunter]

This year was... eyeopening for me, in the best way possible.

In the first half of the year I started soulsearching and studying things I do to help improve myself and remove mindsets and habits that make me unhappy. I visited NC and saw a lot of old friends, and I definitely matured a bit.

In the 2nd half of the year I made the big changes. I've began studies of autism and Kung Fu, both of which started about 5-6 months ago. Being autistic myself these two activities have completely altered the way I view myself and the world around me for the better, and I've begun to learn empathy and discipline. I've been single for 2 years, but this no longer bothers me as this half of the year has been largely dedicated to improving myself.

I got accepted into the University of Colorado: Colorado Springs just days ago. I intend to major is psychology for my bachelors and get my masters in Counseling Psychology so I can get into family/relationship counseling. I've taken some classes on finances and I intend to live a modest life with as little debt as possible. I'm not the kind of guy who likes a lot of stuff anyways.
My priorities have started to straighten out, and will continue to straighten out once I start focusing on what little baggage I have left.

So yes, this year has been quite good for me.

I embarked on the journey of a lifetime. It was riddled with obstacles and challenges not of my own creation which only served to dampen the overall experience. I returned "home" to a completely different world than I had left, and have been struggling to cope with the changes ever since. The constant depression has removed any sense of joy or passion I would have normally felt from important events like graduating university or exiting my teenage years. I have become utterly disillusioned with life in general and am now locked in an endless debate over what there is to do next and whether or not it is of any point or purpose. 2012 would be the best year of my life if the world ended and that's not even a smurfing joke.

I... I have no words for this. I hope things look up for you sooner rather than later. I, and many others, are here for you if you need to talk or vent. Someone who has brought so much joy to these forums should never have to suffer without joy of his own.