So how is everyone doing?

[Nait]

I'm still way back, but I want to post a few things. Maybe I'll edit this after I finish reading this thread. How did I have the patience for these old threads? It's like fourteen conversations going on around you and you're supposed to keep them all straight.

I'm just scared. A lot of people here remember a very different and much stupider young me.

I understand this feeling exactly. I am often aware (and, unfortunately, often reminded) of my worst traits that I exhibited, not only on here, but that were going on simultaneously while I was on here. I remember a lot of events at that time I wish I could undo, or fix, or replace with something more positive, but that's the way of life, isn't it?

If I could, I would nuke Usenet and maybe this place too, and geocities and the Internet Archive and everything on the net just to wipe out a few inconsequential stupidities of my dumb youth.

oh jesus christ like that one thread where Rydia posted some art and i kept on posting a new adoring message like i'd had amnesia and i thought it was funny at the time but in retrospect it came off as really smurfing creepy

or really early, over a smurfing decade ago when I posted with a RED COPPERPLATE GOTHIC font

Just let me say that whatever I did, whatever I said, whatever happened, I am so sorry about it all, and let's just forget about it.