Shion, I've seen photos of you (on Facebook, of course) and you don't look 'large' at all! Don't be sad Shion, you look daamn fine. I say that as a friend, though. Geez don't want sharky taking that the wrong way.
I think what you should do though, if you still feel too large for yourself to feel comfortable, is to go the gym. I think you do that anyway, but going to the gym is a great way to both lost fat (and tone up as well) and is a great stress reliever. Just pop in the music and do some weights or go on the treadmill.
I'll leave it at that (lest I begin doing a full on pep talk) but don't be so silly Shion. You're wonderful![]()