Worse thoughts (CC: SHORTY)
I'm treating this like an email thread.
Oh god I'm going to die, oh god my stomach is devouring itself, oh god what if I can't make it down to Harrisburg in time to see my dad before whatever is wrong with him kills him, (statistically his auto immune disease usually doesn't get much better the older he gets) oh god what if i end up like that, oh god what am i losing so much strength, what if wayne is cheating on me? oh god why am i so paranoid, oh i don't want to move again, oh god i'm starting to have a panic attack, oh man, what if it isn't a panic attack and i'm actually dying, oh god i don't want to get in the car, what if someone crushes me in an accident, what if those crackers were bad, what if we brought roaches with us, what if we never are able to get rid of them, did that person wash their hands? am i coming down with something? am i ever going to feel better? i just want a steak? i just want to feel normal. i just want to feel happy and fun again. i want to smile. i want to feel like i matter to someone, i want to feel like i am someone. i'm 32 and i'm never going to have children (duh) and my parents are disappointed in me, oh god what about a career?
these are my daily thoughts times 1000. you just witnessed a day in the life of someone who suffers from severe anxiety
so to keep it on topic i guess, what uh, were you thinking about today?
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Originally Posted by snacks
It requires a fair bit of effort because I don't like to keep things to myself, it's not in my nature.
