i managed to find a switch in my head to turn off the smurfs i give.
i can be pretty careless about almost everything if i want.
i figured there is just no time in life to stress.

although i do freak out in my head sometimes a little about my boyfriend.
i dont want kids and neither does he.
but i know he only says no becaus i say it. he does want kids. and i am always afraid he might leave me one day becaus of that.