It's actually because I don't have a job and am stagnant in my life and contribute nothing to society because I can't find a job which is leading me deeper in to my debilitating depression which makes me unable to sleep at night because when I try to sleep I cry and give myself a bad headache and then by the time I fall asleep at 4 am I am very tired and sleep until noon. It is also a secondary coping mechanism because I feel very lonely, out of place, and homesick as I have yet to integrate myself to my new home in a new country and haven't made any friends, so my boyfriend is really the only regular social interaction I get. So I sleep all day to shorten my time without him because when I wake up I am hit by an overwhelming feeling of sadness, especially since we live out in the woods and I can't even look outside and see other human beings.

Or, we could just say I suck.