It's my day off of work today! Lucky because I couldn't sleep last night. When the sun started rising and I was still laying there awake, that was pretty annoying. Think I managad to get a few hours in the morning. Beginning to train my voice; I have a feeliing an operation isn't going to be enough. It's the thing that's causing me the most anxiety, actually. But some of these girls on YouTube are incredible though, when they briefly use their old voice it's literally unbelievable. My male voice is nowhere near as deep as theirs. There's hope. Going running soon once my breakfast has settled in my stomach. I have been wearing the same outfit basically for like four days because it's kind of unisex - really tight black jeans and baggy jumpers. Some people who know me are noticing the subtle bits of makeup I'm wearing day to day to make myself feel more like myself. Also I have ordered my own for the first time! I've dropped to a UK size 8 in woman's leggings/jeans! I'm only 5'7/5'8 and small framed so this is a healthy weight for me! Not completely sure when I develop more hips and bum if I still will be, though, we'll have to see! I'm booking an appointment with my GP later today for this week. Scary! It begins. I'm pretty psyched about getting into writing again, I'm pretty psyched about being creative generally really. I'm excited for moving in with my brother; I'll have my own room again finally and will have a private place to get ready and be myself for whole nights at a time. I'm happy/scared/uneasy/content/excited.