One aspect of most people dealing with major depression is the fact that we work to hide it very effectively. Many very funny people are hiding deep wounds that they can't stand to air out loud, even when a voice deep inside of them wants to grab people and say "if you only understood."
It still eeks out at times. But when the world only sees you as a funny person, how do you subvert their expectations by dumping all of your heartache and pain on them? Would they even believe you were being serious if you did?
I posted a part of this quote from Watchmen to my Twitter when I heard the news, but here it is in full:
Heard joke once: Man goes to doctor. Says he's depressed. Says life seems harsh and cruel. Says he feels all alone in threatening world where what lies ahead is vague and uncertain. Doctor says, "Treatment is simple. Great clown Pagliacci is in town tonight. Go and see him. That should pick you up." Man bursts into tears. Says "But Doctor... I am Pagliacci." Good joke. Everybody laugh. Roll on snare drum. Curtains.




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