Thanks all for responding, It just makes me feel that I am not the only one who feels this way, sometimes I have nightmares that involves my SO being hurt and when I wake up I get sad and I have to tell him about it. He says nothing will ever happen like that but still I get so worried and worked up about it. I just can't imagine the devastation it would bring if ever something happened. I don't know if I could ever have the strength within me to move on. But! I always pray that Escobert is always in the good path and out of danger's reach.