Forgot to mention. Vicodin puts me in the best mood ever. I never get tired on it. If anything, I just want to get stuff DONE! It's weird.
I'd also be interested in trying a hallucinogen of sorts. Don't know where to start, what is "safe", or even if I should seeing how I would like to keep my job. But ever since I experienced ambien, I feel at peace in the heat of the moment. It's a weird sense of escape at times. I don't know, I am obviously having a hard time explaining this.