Diary,

Never again. I'll never do it again. I have no intention of ever doing it again. I was so sick last night, even now I still don't feel very well; I felt like I was going to die. It was the same for Matt, actually I think he was even sicker than I was. I don't understand how it didn't effect Paul, I guess he has much more experience with it. Matt and I on the other hand have no experience with this sort of thing.

Matt and I made a pact together this morning never to do it again; we gave our word and neither of us will let the other one relapse. I guess it is better that it is over and done with now, it was a hard lesson to learn but it HAD to be learned.

Well, any female I am sure would prefer a guy who doesn't drink so that is a secondary way it works to my advantage. The primary reason is I just don't want to ever feel like I did last night again.

Never again.