My mom caught me cutting myself today. She was very upset. I didn't want her to find out because she has enough to worry about and she blames herself for these things. But it is completely my fault. She is sending me to a psycologist on Friday, whopee. They just tell me the same thing, all of these stupid people, about how I just need to get over Brett and that I need to grow up but they don't understand how I feel. On a lighter note I tried to dye my blond hair black and it turned blue. It is a very interesting navy color. It is absolutely hilarious, and I think I'll keep my hair blue for a while for fun. You should see the looks on peoples' faces, because this is very unlike me. But I think I lke this new erratic behavior patten.