The Journal Thread (September)

[Bulldog]

Yes, it is I.
I went to a party this very night. I've just come back home, and I'm scared. We shared the same drinks, and one of us, actually, I, noticed that there was blood on the tip of one of the cups. I pointed it out, and the others suddenly said "aids". I was shocked. I still am. What if we've been spreading HIV to each other? I don't really know what to do, if I am HIV positive. It jus freaks me out to think about it. Here's the best part; I am followed by bad luck. Every single problem I've encountered have been slamming my life through the mud. Why should this be different? I'll find this out as soon as I can. I'm so depressed. I keep telling myself that it's a fifty/fifty, but it isn't. It is as if my mind tells me that I'm doomed.

edit: I just found out, that I have to wait for 3 months to get an accurate result. I'm afraid I won't be able to keep my sanity until that time comes. Until then, I probably won't be as active on the internet as I am now. This really stresses me.