sigh... i swear i ahve this thing with procastination. ive got only 500 words to write for my english coursework analysis but im posting here instead because its much easier to pass time than doing my english. ive done half the notes already and all i need to do is get them out of my bag adn put them on the talbe in front of me and start typing. why am i here typing this? i just seem to feel all my friends are too busy for me. i call anyone and they are either not at home or busy. (im supposed to be busy with work too... but i procastinate) it jsut seems in the matter of 2 weeks ive lost all my friends who either say one word to me then turn to leave or jsut simply refuse to speak to me in wihc i get an amazing im busy or maybe sometimes with a sorry in front.
worst thing is... two girls that ive been relatively friendly with just seem to have gotten so moody all of a sudden... one is totally avoiding me.. the other is busy worrying about getting rejected by the universities shes applied to and when i try to comfort her she jsut goes kinda berserk then suddenly melancholy silent. thing is... 4 A's 1B and shes worried... i messed up and got 1B 1C 3D's for my last set of exams...i call ehr at home try to talk to her i get the sorry im realyl busy ill call you back when i can then no phone call for the next week. is there a bunch of gigantic letters on my forehead saying im a loser ignore me? it sure feels that way. anyways.. my rant for today si done.. i got english to do.
