I must tell you that you're totally crazies, but you know what? I am feeling totally confrtable with you! I never tried to suicide but there are parts of our lives that the only thing that we want it's a gun or something else. Now I'm just like a psychologist, but the last year, in the summer (that's when people have fun, but for me it' qhen I'm alone at my house and the only thing that I do, it's playing ff and listen music, otherwise I die of tedious!)I had some big troubles. Only my Squall (a friend of mine), kept me alive! Rape, it's really diferent, I condend people that do taht! I just want to cut their heads, you'll say "You've no mercy", but i write a book, and there was a girl that was rapped, and I think that I wrote her fellings really well, I try to image that and I must say it's almost undiscribe! :laugh: