i was also reffring to younger ages DJ. the main example i was reffering to is an old school pal i knew from primary (kindergarden for Yanks). certainly he was already slighty messed up back then, but from our days in school in teh eighties and ninties, as sonic made way for the much more volitile doom.....all he EVER did was play video games because he has sina biffida and wouldnt come out of the house. from then he had a cavalier idea of violence...while at teh same time i grew to learn to use swords and around magic fairs etc, so i instead was surrounded with the notions of cherishing life. today he thinks it's cool to make jokes about anal sex and worse.

when i was tought how to use a sword for real i fought adults as their were no other kids around.....so i also learned to be good as a child to beat them.....but i was also learning a large responisbility. i was doing blows at full speed with an edged weapon and pulling the blows so i won, but didnt hurt anyone. it gave me a confidence and responsibility that many dont have.

i wouldnt say fear violence as much as not appriciate how terrible and horrific it is. people think they are entitled to things they would think they were if they lived elsewhere and so they dont know what to do when they encounter someone who violence is second nature too.

im vegan so im totally aware of the connection between "relation to whats on your plate". this also beings up a current theory in humanity that the two kinds of early man didnt kill the other.....that both the warrior/viloent meateaters and the artistic/nonviolent veges actually mated and created what we are today...hence we are omnivores and so many people are peaceful and so many others turn to violence.

i embrace the violence within me both spiritually and through the sword which allows me to NOT be a nutter. sparring and actual fighting...we teach both at full speed and contact but for you to have control over yourself and teh wepons so that you dont put each other in hospital......somthing im discovering in teh UK that many martial arts places dont do.