Life is what you make of it. If you let something that trivial control how you feel, than you are wasting you're life. Sometimes, people who have nothing are the happiest people in the world. Happiness doesn't come from material things. You're outlook can totally change the way you're life is, not how many toys you have. If this is why you're life sucks, than it's one hundred percent you're fault. I recommend that you fix it, but you can't do that with money.