You're not as bad as you think you are, you are not the worst example of human existance, you have redeeming features.
Everyone has redeeming features, at least something that's good about them, just most people seem to be obsessed with a lack of self-esteem and putting themselves down, though the latter is usually a defence mechanism, put yourself down first so others won't do it later.
You have a redeeming feature, even if it's just one, so post it here then.